Wednesday, June 1

Rainbow Love Farm

As you know I am no longer at Rainbow Love Farm.

It has been a tough journey over these last 8 weeks. There have been some ups but mostly downs.
It is hard to move on from a relationship that has been your life for 14 years.
It is hard when you must see the person for the sake of the kids and there is so much bitterness and hatred directed at you and you are trying to get over a whole bunch of hurt.

I miss the days when Peace actually was peaceful
I miss the kids being able to see him most days after work.
I miss having another person to help make/argue about decisions with.






 I really miss having a home. I am not enjoying living in a place with no hot water, minimal electricity, no kitchen or bathroom and a shared toilet. I did this years ago and it was ok because it was a choice. I'd still be ok living like this if I owned a block and wasgoing to improve it but to be living this way when you don't want to, to be trying cope with a breakup and everyday life is so tiring is hard :(

I really miss my garden...it was where I felt most at peace.




BUT I keep reminding myself that Rainbow Love Farm is not a place.
It is a state of mind.


The Rainbow lives in my heart...


The  LOVE  is the whole reason we are here. To give love and to recieve love. (I am working on the later)

And the Farm is how we caretake our mother the Earth.

14 comments:

messyfish said...

Sounds bad. Peace needs to get peaceful again or someone will have to punch him.

Erin said...

Thinking of you ...
A few years ago, we had to leave a place that we loved w/ all of our heart. I still miss this place. However, I always remind myself that "it" is a state of mind just as Rainbow Love Farm is. Wishing you more peaceful days soon ...

majikfaerie said...

I love you.

Luscious Lea said...

Love to you xo

gaynor said...

maybe this time is needed to work out what you really need in life...<3 to you and the kids...<3 Gaynor

karisma said...

(((HUGS)))

Sazz said...

So much love to you *mwah* can't imagine how hard these eight months and before have been. May you feel the rainbow always, in the very near future.

Ariad said...

Thankyou all so much for your kind thoughts

Kimmie said...

Hi Ariad

I have no idea what happened with you and Peace but I can tell your heart is blue.

Email me any time honey if you need and ear.

Hugs

Kimmie
x

Christie said...

Before I came on here to see what you'd written today, if anything, I had actually thought, I don't know this person and have only read her thoughts on here, but I know from what I have read that she is a strong lady and will be ok. After all, Rainbow Love Farm is not a place, but a state of mind. I felt compelled to tell you.

Christie said...

And in case you are wondering who this crazy lady is, it Tatangel19 from MDC.

adventure cirkus said...

sorry

greencocoon said...

Im keeping you in my heart. my 11 year relationship ended 9 months ago. I feel every word you wrote. Every day is a new day, different, some days better, some days worse, some days you look forward with an open happy heart and some days its hard to not cry all day missing what is past. Keep love in your mind and heart and take care of you. Big big love to you and your kids.

Ariad said...

Thanks Geen cocoon. Hugs to you and I wish you the best too.

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